relaXed a lil', finally

After suffering from sleepless nights for the whole week busy studying, I'm so sick currently.. Eye circles darkened, shoulder stiffened, insomnia(see, what am I doing now?)... Haiyo, must I be in these conditions every time during any examinations??

I'm sick of burning the midnight oil;
I'm sick of staying up late at the middle of the night studying alone while everyone else were sleeping;
I'm sick of cramming those "knowledge" in just a night's time;
I'm sick of facing the fact before exams that I haven't finish studying and that I keep on blaming myself in the end which have never save the situation at all anyway;
I'm sick of torturing my beloved body where currently the immune system or whateva system that the body's working on with is at a dangerous level....

OHMYGOD... Sick of all those, but I'm not taking any actions to change my studying strategy..
What The Hell?? Liddat talk so much also no point lar.. =.=

Anyway, for papers taken these days, I dunno what results I'll get.. I was hoping that every thing will come out as usual lor.. I dun wanna fail any papers la... T.T

For the first day of trials, I actually wept before the exam knowing that I haven't touch my form 4 Sejarah text book while others are REVISING them for the 3rd to 4th time already.. I thought I was the only one left behind, but after the paper, everyone's like giving out disappointing expressions... That makes me a lil' relieved, but I dunno whether they're true or not... Even those playful kiddos are studying, that makes me couldn't forgive myself even more.. Sigh.. What's up with me??

I have been changing the studying environment throughout the trials too... Sometimes I head home straight away after school, sometimes I chose to date with the school, staying till late evenings before deciding to head home... By time when I want to leave, dad said he can fetch me.. And guess what, my great ol' dad had actually came from his workplace-Shah Alam to KL just to fetch me other than letting me take public transport home.. How touched to know 'bout this fact.. THANK YOU SO MUCH DADDY!!! However, sometimes I got the guilt feeling when I didn't study a lot even though staying back till so late at school.. Sorry dad, I didn't mean to do that.. It's just that I don't really know what's up with me...

And then, just to update with the happenings lately... Got to know Nick's hidden birth date(not specifying here cuz I guess he don't want anymore people to know bout' it) and that Hui Xian's sharing the same birth date with him.. How coincidently... And on the 25th it's Sarah's b'day.. Her birthday seems to give me some special luck actually cuz my parents FINALLY agreed to let me drive to school... Woohoo... What a GREAT BIG NEWS man... Thank you mum, thank you dad!!!

Haha.. I was on a conversation with my greatest math teacher just now... Wanna see what we're talking about?? Read what he says... (SUPERDUPER RARE case for teachers) =) [one fine day is him while MtMt is me...}

one fine day 说:
ur maths teacher really sucks

MtMt 说:
haha

MtMt 说:
math teacher condemning each other

MtMt 说:
how fun

one fine day 说:
u know wat happened de la

MtMt 说:
yea

one fine day 说:
add mahts

one fine day 说:
all students must resit

MtMt 说:
same question paper ma

one fine day 说:
next saturday

MtMt 说:
MUST a?

one fine day 说:
YES

one fine day 说:
resit PAPER 1

one fine day 说:
Fuxx la

MtMt 说:
ohohoho

MtMt 说:
teacher scolding vulgars

one fine day 说:
irreponsible

MtMt 说:
hahah

MtMt 说:
i am so homoured to see this man

MtMt 说:
hahaha

MtMt 说:
dat's lazy la not meh??

MtMt 说:
lazy to think ma

one fine day 说:
this is CHONG HWA

one fine day说:
爛老師

one fine day 说:
　教出爛學生

MtMt 说:
very true

one fine day 说:
pity for u guys

MtMt 说:
u have to

one fine day 说:
i threw his MARKING SCHEME

one fine day 说:
rubbish

MtMt 说:
that's what u shud do

one fine day 说:
no intention to see any words

MtMt 说:
btw, who let him set the papers??

one fine day 说:
supervisor la

MtMt 说:
what a "wise" decision

one fine day 说:
校長說他是　spm add maths 權威　wor

MtMt 说:
suan liao la

one fine day 说:
原來　國中權威　就是　讓學生作弊

one fine day 说:
配合學生程度出題

one fine day 说:
拿別校題目來當預試啼

MtMt 说:
prove to the damn principal that this bloody teacher dun deserve that stupid title la

MtMt 说:
complain

MtMt 说:
but i guess also no use de la

one fine day 说:
the principal still supports the USELESS guy de

MtMt 说:
dat stupid principal is on his side wat

one fine day 说:
ask ur parents to complain

one fine day 说:
really

one fine day 说:
parents are BOSS

MtMt 说:
i'm not taking add math ppr wor

MtMt 说：
ask those who're taking add math lar..

one fine day 说:
he never listened to teachers

one fine day 说:
even comdemn us

MtMt 说:
the bloody principal condemned u teachers?

MtMt 说:
oh god

one fine day 说:
yes

MtMt 说:
he's such a jerk

one fine day 说:
SUCKS FUXX


( when he's hungry, our conversation kinda ended....)

one fine day 说:
wei

one fine day 说:
saya lapar

one fine day 说:
makan supper dulu

MtMt 说:
okok

Hahaha... Can't believe this will happen.. The add math paper for the SPM trials set by my math teacher have found out to be question papers set by a government school... How humiliating to my math teacher... How farking lazy that old man is... I couldn't believe he actually did this to this big exam besides knowing the fact that our small test at class are part of the stolen properties from text books and other schools too.. I wonder what qualification made him a Chong Hwa teacher man.. How stupid the principal is..

Oh shit... I'm supposed to be sleeping by now...
Dozing off to bed soon..
Nitez...

XOXO,
snookie