choice of giving up...

So you think I'm stubborn?
Yea I am.

So you think I made those just to show off how smart I am?
Yea I am.

So you think I made those just to waste your money?
Yea I am.

So you think I purposely wanted to get scolded by you?
Yea I am.

Whatever I do, you're always right and I'm always wrong.


I give up.

Since you say so,
I'll never step into the kitchen anymore.

I never meant to be stubborn, I was just finding for something meaningful to do other than staying at home and rot.
I never meant to be stubborn, I just wanted to prove to you that I can depend on myself and I don't want to be labeled as "a girl who'll never grow up".

I never meant to show off, I just wanted to give you a surprise because all the while I never did anything meaningful before.
I never meant to show off, because there's no one who'll see me doing that.

I never meant to waste your money and ingredients, I even use my own money to buy ingredients that we don't have at home.
I never meant to waste your money and ingredients, I called to ask is because I'm afraid that I'll buy whatever we've already have at home.

I never want you to scold me, because I know you're tired after working the whole day.
I never want you to scold me, because I know you won't feel good doing that.

I never want to argue with you, I told you before that I just wanted you to know how I felt.
I never want to argue with you, because it sucks to have quarrels at home.


Mom, I'm sorry if I did anything that you think I've done wrong.

I never meant to make things worse, especially during the day when I just got home from camp and will be leaving the next day again.

I actually wanted you to have some thing I did to replace the absence of me for the next few days.
I actually wanted you to have the pride by bringing what I've made to Aunt Janet's Christmas party this Sat and claim that it's your daughter that made those.


I have nothing more to say.


P.S thanks to my lil' bro who still claimed that the burned cookies are still delicious.